Honey

Mmmm…yum.

We’ll have gluten free pancakes this evening because pancakes are delicious. Even though the pancake mix is made with no gluten, they taste just as good as gluten-filled pancakes. (Except they have a horrible after-taste and they’re very grainy.) Ha ha ha ha ha ha! (I was just going to say that we don’t have syrup, which would be a huge bummer, when suddenly, our roommate called and will be picking some up on the way home.)

I’m having the same dream almost every night. In my dream, I am thoroughly enjoying the lovely inhale of cigarette after cigarette. All of a sudden, I think to myself:

This is a huge mistake. Why am I doing this? Now I will have to quit all over again. Quitting smoking is the closest experience I can imagine to burning in the endless, unmerciful fire of Hell. I do not want to have to quit smoking again. This sucks.

This dream has a very deep, emotional affect on me. I am overwhelmingly happy when I wake up and realize that I didn’t actually smoke an entire pack of cigarettes overnight. Then I fall asleep the next night, just to be faced with the same dream again, this time with a bit more complexity. This time, I think to myself:

Oh, I’m smoking. I can’t believe I’m doing this. All those dreams I’ve been having lately may not have been real, but this certainly is. This is horrible. Why is this happening?

And I’m still thinking to myself, why is this happening? It’s as though I’m bundling up all my stress and fear and doubt and expressing it over and over again in this repetitive dream. This morning, when I remembered my dream, I was riding my bike to work. With my sigh of relief realizing that it wasn’t real, I felt my breath clear, easy, and full. I have not been able to breathe like this since before I started smoking in the first place.

I could do without these stressful dreams, but they also remind me that I am so glad I am not a smoker and I am so glad I don’t have to quit all over again. It’s hard enough after 11 months.

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